Tuesday, April 3, 2012
i want to feel that
it has been a while. hai.
this blog got me thinking, you know. i was one with loads of things to say and write back then...and now, look at this crappy blog i cant say anything anymore. and i realize, when i arguing with people, i let go more easily now. i dont know why. i envy people who are still good with words and can say what they mean out loud and get people's responses.
maybe its the new surroundings. meaning my husband? hahahah ..hm.. meh~
anyways. with this new life-schedule i have (im a new mom btw)i am blessed with some time to re-discover myself.. as u know, pressure can squeeze heck a lot of things out of u.. and it seems that the pressure that this little cute human being squeeze out of me is the force to search for the person whom i thought i was before...
so, what did i re-discover? i re-discover my passion for music. the layers of sound that can be so harmonious with my feeling and nostalgic memories...since i was 12, i cant live without my walkman (then cassette player, now mo3 player) but since i got married, i left it alone in its case. kesian. so, i got back into it, i dont really know what made me, but i started listening to kings of lambs. i finally can digest it, (i couldnt when it first released) and i dont know what the heck made me click on that youtube to listen to Adele.
but gosh, i surely am glad i did. she's super. one thing i can say about her that made me like her is that she's just like radiohead.
trus jadi brain damage sbb nda dapat digest apa persamaan adele dgn radiohead. ok la. this post isnt suppose to be about music. so i should just leave that for u to figure..
*tiba2 baby iyyad buat bunyi comel--caiirrr kejap grrhhhhh took 5 minute to cry*
so i was saying,..while i was watching adele n listening back to radiohead n other bands i used to love to listen to all the time-- i thot...it is probably the best feeling to say/sing/write/draw/make anything etc etc and really mean twhat you say/sing/write/draw/make that thing etc and have the whole world (or many people pun jadi la) to share it with and make them understand what you mean and go say "hey, i feel that too" or "that's exactly what i was thinking!!!"
you know?...
maybe that is what our generation is aiming for..especially our youth and our teenagers...including me!! (i am so young) ...u know..that great feeling of being able to express ourselves and share it with the whole world and be understood...
i want that. i wish i have that...
draw comics and have people cry reading it (like i did reading that drama-genre comic while i was in welly, cried because it was abo0ut someone's daddy)...
write books and have people go through a roller coaster of feelings...(like i had when i read that book by that someone coz its about some sad family)
give speeches and have people agree with you and saya "yeah mannn!!" out loud..but i aint no man, and i rarely listen to speeches..hah
write and sing songs and make people cry too....
i guess...the key is to have that bizarre effect is simple...
it's honesty.
plain honesty. jujur, tulus, ikhlas. dalam apa juga kita buat. wearing our hearts on our sleeves...then we can express ourselves, and have people listen.
what a feeling.
this blog got me thinking, you know. i was one with loads of things to say and write back then...and now, look at this crappy blog i cant say anything anymore. and i realize, when i arguing with people, i let go more easily now. i dont know why. i envy people who are still good with words and can say what they mean out loud and get people's responses.
maybe its the new surroundings. meaning my husband? hahahah ..hm.. meh~
anyways. with this new life-schedule i have (im a new mom btw)i am blessed with some time to re-discover myself.. as u know, pressure can squeeze heck a lot of things out of u.. and it seems that the pressure that this little cute human being squeeze out of me is the force to search for the person whom i thought i was before...
so, what did i re-discover? i re-discover my passion for music. the layers of sound that can be so harmonious with my feeling and nostalgic memories...since i was 12, i cant live without my walkman (then cassette player, now mo3 player) but since i got married, i left it alone in its case. kesian. so, i got back into it, i dont really know what made me, but i started listening to kings of lambs. i finally can digest it, (i couldnt when it first released) and i dont know what the heck made me click on that youtube to listen to Adele.
but gosh, i surely am glad i did. she's super. one thing i can say about her that made me like her is that she's just like radiohead.
trus jadi brain damage sbb nda dapat digest apa persamaan adele dgn radiohead. ok la. this post isnt suppose to be about music. so i should just leave that for u to figure..
*tiba2 baby iyyad buat bunyi comel--caiirrr kejap grrhhhhh took 5 minute to cry*
so i was saying,..while i was watching adele n listening back to radiohead n other bands i used to love to listen to all the time-- i thot...it is probably the best feeling to say/sing/write/draw/make anything etc etc and really mean twhat you say/sing/write/draw/make that thing etc and have the whole world (or many people pun jadi la) to share it with and make them understand what you mean and go say "hey, i feel that too" or "that's exactly what i was thinking!!!"
you know?...
maybe that is what our generation is aiming for..especially our youth and our teenagers...including me!! (i am so young) ...u know..that great feeling of being able to express ourselves and share it with the whole world and be understood...
i want that. i wish i have that...
draw comics and have people cry reading it (like i did reading that drama-genre comic while i was in welly, cried because it was abo0ut someone's daddy)...
write books and have people go through a roller coaster of feelings...(like i had when i read that book by that someone coz its about some sad family)
give speeches and have people agree with you and saya "yeah mannn!!" out loud..but i aint no man, and i rarely listen to speeches..hah
write and sing songs and make people cry too....
i guess...the key is to have that bizarre effect is simple...
it's honesty.
plain honesty. jujur, tulus, ikhlas. dalam apa juga kita buat. wearing our hearts on our sleeves...then we can express ourselves, and have people listen.
what a feeling.
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