ENVY

I think I need to be more observant; and in the same time be more expressive too. coz People said that good artists are good observers; and People also said that being expressive of who we really are is going to make us different than others.

So I come up with a nice little equation: GOOD OBSERVER + MORE EXPRESSIVE OF SELF = good 'artist'..

BUt then again, it's not as easy. Always the case.
I just want it to happen.
Overnight?
OKAY.
It's a process.
Just be something; waz.. rather than keep on being envious of others life and talent.

Meanwhile

Weirdly funny: HERE. I have to admit; it's true. Well, at least in my case. Everywhere I turn, everyone I See, every life I know, I feel envy. It's ***i lack vocabulary***. Maybe that is why I choose not to buy magz, or watch too much tiviii, or listen to too much stories,...

This envy thing's making me narrow-minded. I've been narrow minded since the day I taught myself to be too envious. Blergh. Sunday morning blues. Horrible weekend, by the way. I can't figure out what I wanted; let alone figuring out what other people want of me. Tough problem. Tougher than maths, I'll say.

SOmetimes I feel I'm JACK. Being a jack of all trades sucks big time. 'coz you'll b a master of NONE; and that sucks--being a jack.