thought disorder

I just got home from--well, somewhere, and I sat here in my 'office' to continue on my latest piece since 930pm. almost an HOUR past and the piece is still lying there at the corner of my table with the pencil case neatly 'sitting' on it like a quit dog.

I always get distracted. Hey, in this world full of everything, who arent distracted? If everyone isnt distracted by what they are suppose to do, everyone'd be --------

im distracted again. my point is, yes, i always am distracted by the little things while i should be doing some other things. A few weeks ago I came up to this read while browsing what might have caused all the heavy and endless migraines I have been having since 13 years old (which is getting more serious these few months). SO i came up with this conclusion that people like me and my big boss are seriously having this disorder.

OKay. I am also a mild drama queen so maybe this is just similar to the phase when i totally believed that i suffer from mild depression and ....

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so, waz....When you have tooooo much in your head that you wanted to let it all out; write it down. doodle it. scratch it on woods for GOD's sake and find what is it that you really wana talk about. WHAT MATTERS THE MOST in your point? then, get it rearrange, rewrite it, and then talk about it.

i guess, most of the people with serious thought disorder dont have much time to do all that rearranging process. We have too much things in our head that the process will take tooo longgggg that we just give it up in the middle; and considered it another pointless pursuit...

and so; at the end of the day, it's either we'll be this quit person that goes hyper with all those things in her/his head or be the other person who will talk endlessly; beating around the bush until the train of thoughts finally has a ending.