I wana have fun

I often have the urge to go out somewhere and be in long trips. *refer to previous post on how much I love long trips* I wonder what causes this feeling constantly. Am I running from something here? Or am I trying to run towards something?

Well, I'm training not to think too much into things. So let's just assume that is I have those feelings because I always want to seek for excitement and fun things to do outside. Adventurous? I dont know. maybe? But then, why am I still stuck here in 'my' bedroom and typing this entry when I can go out and have 'fun'.

I contradict myself. Yet again. I love adventures but I cant get myself out of my house. whattaaaa...and say in situations such as I was hanging out with a bunch of friends; suddenly, I feel that I want to be out of here (there) and I'd say...hey guys..I have this huge ass migraine so I think I wana call it a night...and I went up to my room. Instead of sleeping I'd do dumb stuffs like drawing shitty art, writing pointless letters, crying or throw a tantrum in my room...

or maybe the usual case; my friends from work would say hey we're going somewhere to eat something, wana come? and I'd say nah...I'm gona go straight home...after a few times like that, they had stopped asking me...

thank God I wasnt the Blitz (refer to HIMYM) so there was few amazing things that could happen to my bunch of friends/crowd that I left. None of what I was told....or was there?.....Oh myyy what if I was the Blitz and was never aware of it??

HAVE I BEEN MISSING ALL THE FUN THESE YEARS?

ooohhhnnneeeuuuuuoooooooooooooo

[gasp]

[hold breath]

*I still love you guys nonetheless, barney*

Ah. Enough of the fake freak out. I am having fun my way and so whatever.

[in denial]

I'm planning to climb Kinabalu again. But mommy's against it. She gave reasons like 'what's the point? youve been there twice' 'the money can be used to pay ur bills/renovate your house/wed someone' and ultimately she'll gave a smirk and say 'suka hati kau la'...which is the point when I usually give up arguments with her.