because futsal training is canceled and i was told about it while i was walking half way there (almost drench in rain), i have the time to update my blog. YEAH!!! (genuine happiness, half sarcasm, please note).
anyway, as i said, i have recently became a deviant. and so i browsed through the millions of deviations and i was filled with envy and jealousy. people are heavy with talent here.some even make a living out of it and i envy their ability to make something out of their passion and their interest or hobby...
then, i found Marina-B and thegirlinthebigbox. they both share the same thing: they sell their products, the things that they made because they love to do it. if that is solely their way of earning their living, they surely love their jobs.. i was inspired by this and by their artworks of course. they are beautiful... people should check em out if you havent already.
i thought..i just want to make something out of my life with the things that i do love doing... but damn..i feel that i'll never be good enough in anything. say that im wrong but its my hands, my voice, my body, and i know if i am or im not doing things satisfying enuf... i just wish, i have something to push me, u know.. or maybe i should get into an art class, just to learn some techniques that might be useful to help me get the ideas out of my head and put it on paper and do my best to make it at least an inch closer to my imagination. bukannye cam sekarang, idea lain, hasil laen sume sbb skill aku limited, damnnn....
sebagai contoh, i have submitted another piece of shit on my DA's account called "i'll explode". anyone who has a DA account and apparently reading this, pleasee, pleaseeeee comment and criticize that crap...
i got that idea at 3 in the morning and spent 2 and a half days thinking of how to complete it..but at the end, i hated it with all my heart because it wasnt actually what i wanted it to be.damn3....
anyway..another thing, when Atik came back from her trip to Auckland she told me about Nab's story which is somewhat similar to the two artists ive told about earlier. she make things (enjoying them btw) and sell them... atik bought a t-shirt from her and fana too. she sold em through her myspace. when we were back in ipba, i can sense her creativity aura from the start...i must confess i was jealous with her talent and her camera at that time!!haha anyway, check out her myspace. maybe u can buy a few things from her as well..its hand made, man.cam kire one design tak kan same ngan yg laen...pergh. special apa dapat satu tshirt.hehe
INSPIRING!!!--these people's stories..but hurmm...nak jadi cam tu gakkk....wawawawawawawa