Saturday, June 21, 2008

becoming a deviant

im sipemalas in deviantart.com

becoming a deviant is another thing to feel inferior about.there are like thousands of submissions every day, and most of them are good deviations.

aku cam..dah la tak pandai pun nak melukis sangat.pastu aku gune traditional art form.pakai pen, pakai kertas.nak pakai photoshop, x pandai.damn...aku rase klu pandai pakai photoshop, cam lagi luas ke options ko nak buat art..cam lagi byk possibility ko nak buat dgn idea yg ko ade...ni..ade idea, tapi nak realisasi kan idea dengan berbekal kan kertas A4 dan pen dan ilmu yg maha sikit nih, aku..aih..susah btol la...celakek...

pastuh browse, sah2 la aku tgk deviations yg lawa kan...aduhhh..damn3...cam kene hammer jauh kedalam bumi...habis tetanam aku...rase rendah nye diri...

reflek2...dah la pemalas..lagi la susah..susah nak belajar..nak belajar kene bace, kene refer byk2, kene blajar teknik, kene blajar ni tu..ofkos la aku exaggerating kan...klu kemampuan limited, kene la kreatifkan diri kan, expand ikut limitation kite..tapi3....**alasan**...idea aku slalu di potong oleh limitednye kemampuan aku...waaaaaaaaaaaaa.......

anyway..check out my deviantart page..link di side bar...atau di sini: "tong sampah contengan"..