yesterday just saw me burst.
and all i need was a little push.heh
got some news from sai.im glad for u.n good luck.im sure she's a sweet lady.
good for u, good for her.then, good for me.
for a moment there i thought no one can ever stand me.
such a burden.
such trouble.
but then,..well..we have Allah.have faith in Him.
Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang,
Maha Pengampun dosa hamba2 nya
dan
Maha Adil.
and for that im sure my time will come, my man will come
for the time being,
pretty much;
i think i can say: Im not afraid of the world.
there's a work in progress im excited about.
hope i wont screw it up.
and God..sleep deprived~
and there's a wind, there's a sea,
where all my thoughts go
4 more academic weeks to go.
5-6 more weeks of =
workshops+sorting things out+missing Welly while still in it+scared shitless for my returning home
gained my weight back.a lil.
got some new msian artists friends
tht's fun
still wonder how will life b back in msia
gona stop by KK, visit my brother's new home
another baby's coming
pretty babies combination of roots from 5 different countries i think
lovely.
hope my brothers n i will jam together.
now that things r getting better,
i hope that dream will come true
call ourselves the Naans
HAHAHAHAH
still wonder how Ema is doing
still wonder how Bapak is doing
wonder if he's still alive
wonder if he have the slightest feeling of love
for his chidren more than him self.
i can feel ideas coming back
but still take time to visual all of them clearly in my head
n then i hope i can chain-drawing again
i do hope i can sell my own t-shirts one day
wonder if anyone would buy it
and then the wind and the sea
amazing
how we can miss someone thats not actually 'there'
i think i apologize too much
i think im okay
i think im fine
but i waste too much time.