So this thing made me remember this 'saying' or whatever you might call it (a line? a quotation?)
never underestimate the power of any of your actions
that I had been scribbling in my personal notes and diaries since a few years ago when I was in secondary school. I am not the nice kind of girl now but I was far worse during those years. I was always in trouble though I’d like to think that I didn’t look for those troubles but instead, it found me.
Well, finding myself constantly in a situation when I felt troubled; I keep on asking questions like: why this happened to me? And many other questions that lead after that.
But I guess, the immaturity of myself at that stage always came to believe that I should not be the one to be blamed. That I had reasons for my actions. But that thought brought me to the point where I know other people also had reasons for their actions.
So if everyone had their reasons for their actions and everyone was self-righteous, who then should change for the betterment of everyone that were related to the problem or the trouble that we found ourselves in?
The answer is simple: everyone.
After years leaving school and now that I am going on 24 in a few months, I humbly confess that I am still immature in various pathetic ways. And what had changed in my way of thinking from those days in secondary school to this present day? Well, in this case: none.
I still hold the belief that in order to resolve a problem, EVERYONE (related) must change. Everyone must play their cards.
And then I realized if it is a card game, and we are all at a table holding cards, we would know we are in a game and we are players and we have the ‘responsibilities’ to play our cards. But we are not. And my belief could be unacceptable to others. Furthermore some people could have even yet to come to realize that they are in some sort of a trouble or causing problems, so how can these people know that they have to make changes?
Signs are everywhere, if only you want to see it. But other than that, there’s no way. So I can only say to you dear readers:
We’ll never really understand how dangerous some of our actions can be towards others. Therefore, never underestimate the power of any of our actions.
For example: a simple text to an old friend even without any irrational reasons (hopefully) can cause a great grief to someone. A simple ‘alaaaa’ can hurt a mother’s heart. A complimentary ‘pheewiiitt’ to a girl passing by can seem degrading too. A simple friendly laughter at some point made out by a friend can be –well, not so friendly. So, maybe, just maybe—think before you do your actions. Things probably looked different from this side of the world.
And as for me, I played my card.
Your turn.