that's ridiculous. people will never have too much of idle time. it will never be enough; let alone be too much? but I think i cant stand idleness. it squeeze my sanity out of my system (if there's any). maybe that's why i half-consciously keep myself busy and a bit workaholic.
sebagai contohnya; at the moment i am at the office. i mean staffroom; in school. its midnite and we have this kem-kepimpinan..i finished my final commission (for the mean time) and i cant continue with my 'gubahan hantaran' diy at the moment due certain process. merepek jak aku ni..n i cant get myself to continue checking on students books (coz i'll totally black out at the second book) ..so i'm left with this situation where i dont have to do anything at the moment. which is a bit--weird.
n i think it's too much oredi. i know tht i hv too much idle time at the moment coz i found myself browsing through aussino's online catalog. and reminded myself of my time in welly. i bought linens (cheap ones) and changed the beddings once a month or every time i had too much of sadness
2. too much of work
dont get me wrong with number 1 [refer to above]. i am not workaholic. i am not addicted to the busy pills. coz i realized that i havent had the time to really relax and get enough sleep since the school re-opens. n i realized the most dangerous time for me now is driving. i often find myself unable to focus while driving..macam mengelamun tuh...sedar tgh drive, mata tgk depan, tapi tidak fokus. pelik ba tu. n i got butterflies in my stomach more often recently...n when i sleep late, i'll wake up early; no matter how sleepy i am...
n i'll stay awake; n be depressed if i cant get things right (no matter how simple the mistake is) or i have nothing to do...
things are weirder these days.
i hope im not losing it.
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