" i l o v e m y s e l f "
kelebihan manusia itu adalah pada kekurangan nya...
hari ni, aku bersyukur sebab aku dapat bercakap lagi ngan atik pasal "semua" ni...dan aku bersyukur pada satu tahap, aku rasa sedikit persoalan aku dapat jawapan nya.jawapan paling obvious..*insert answer here*..hehe i cant help but to be reminded that ive been here..we've been here before.. but its alrite, its nice to be reminded..we have to be reminded..because we are humans..who often forgets...
but today, the talk feels different. the after-talk feels different too..n i hope, i'll be different after this...**hey..i use the word hope** ngehhhhh
tomorrow, i'll try my best to be better.instead of floating on, i wana walk on earth.i wana remember.i wana believe...hm...
i wont blame myself for finding myself so hard to let go of my past coz its not an easy thing to do.n i wont blame myself for not being able to control the future coz it is not mine.i blame myself if i dont do something about the present..so..this is a start.
i was lost because i forgot where i come from...therefore to find myself i need to go back to my source...and when i remember...i remember how small i am..but remembering how small i am in this way, only makes me stronger inside because i remember that i belong to something bigger..
aku rasa, kekurangan aku, semua jadi kelebihan bila ingat Dia..aku harap, aku ingat semua ni...
i mean.. its so different than being reminded how small, insignificant, dirty, corrupted i am by my past, or by my indefinite future..i feel powerless because i forget the bigger picture...n i'll try my best to stop thinking like this..
this is my reminder. this is my note to myself.if u read this n u can empathy, maybe this will remind you too..
aku sekecil zarah.
aku segelap langit malam.
tapi
siapa pun aku, aku ada Dia.
apa pun aku, aku dari Dia.
satu masa, aku lupa lagi.
tapi
apa pun yang aku cari,
aku tau aku akan jumpa Dia.
apa pun yang aku soal,
aku tau jawapan nya Dia.
it makes so much sense when we go back to the basics..come to think abt it, my mom always said..well, she said so many things that i took for granted n didnt listen carefully..but this one, i try not to forget...she said..more like asking, but she's actually making a point through that question la kan.."buat apa ko mau takut.."..translation: "why r u so afraid?"..or maybe "what r u so afraid of"..coz for her..life is so simple when u 'go back to the basics'..i kinda understand her now..maybe i understood her long before..its just that..we..do..tend to forget...
this is spps to be short..hahaha..
but, hopefully, tomoro, i try mybesttttesstttt
to start another brand new day...hmmm 
if u r still reading this up till this point...im impressed... n i thank you~
thank you atik for the reminder
thank you for the artists here in DA for reminding how important art is to me
thank you for dearest friends who support me
good night...