laying there fully on your back, you were nowhere near dreamland.the ceiling seem whiter than usual.or perhaps it's see-through now.coz right after you closed your eyes, you swore you saw another world beyond that concrete..a familiar world shown like a movie.on repeat.
for a moment there, youre almost sure that you were standing instead of laying; it was cold instead of warm--infact itwas raining and you were watching a couple pass by with the happiest happy face you've ever seen.
or maybe you were moving--walking, towards places you always go to at times like these coz youre quite sure your muscles are moving.you felt a familiar wind blow through your face and you were sure it wasnt from the fan hanging on the ceiling. and for a moment there, you were pretty sure you werent alone. coz you thought you heard a very familiar voice; you heard a distant sincere laugh and you smell something so sweet you really wana hold out your hand and reach that--
thats when you realized you've been holding your breath.you opened your mouth suddenly and gasp for air. you curl up to your side coz the pain on your chest was just too heavy. in your head too and maybe--your whole body.
your eyes are now wide opened.breathing quickly. and then steadily...you pull up your blanket up to your head and cover your face.
then you thought about friends.they dont drag you back down when you're trying really hard to get yourself up from a fall..it's just wrong...youre sure about that..but well..maybe it's just something you hold on to. maybe its different for someone else.
when you're eyes are tired, you closed them up.and the familiar yet different world will come alive again.and you'll wonder around that land to search for a familiar soul.