Paranoia

Some reasons why I do not want to go back to I*B* (in no particular order)

1. Practicum
2. Back to scheduled-life
3. Back to heavy responsibilities—back to reality
4. Practicum
5. I am paying for my food--well, technically...not me..but by the generous citizens of Malaysia. For that, I thank all of you, dear tax payers~~
   
6. Internet connection sucks
7. Practicum
8. It’s in KL
9. Social life—and the demand to be good at it
10. I have no place to hide when things go rough
11. So little space
12. I am paranoid
    
13. The ever-ready-expectations; including mine
    
14. Practicum

Some reasons why I do not want to stay home (in no particular order)

1. I am bad at being a good daughter
2. I am bad at being a good and supportive sister
3. I am bad at being a good house-keeper
4. I loathe aimless days
   
5. Here means faraway from kmu

The reasons for hating to stay at home will make me want to go back to I*B* and the reasons for hating to go to I*B* will make me want to stay here and not pack up and be in denial. So, again, I will be in this state that I call the transitional phase where/when I will be—sort of—confused and mixed up, depressed too, maybe.

But of course… I will still be on that plane, Sunday. Life, here I come.

jimmmyyyyy...accchaaa~~ jimmmy......achaaaa~~ tararattararattarattaaa