yeah....
ehehe...
ehehehe....
anyway.beberapa ari ni aku tak produktif gile2.satu artwork tak siap2 lagi.n hemohemo mentioned something abt writing n i just remembered that i havent been writing in my journal for a longgggg time...
maybe life's just arent inspiring enough for words n ideas? really? or is life just too inspiring that i cant put down the feeling on paper with words or any images with color n pens to describe how wonderful life is rite now? ehehee....or maybe..ahhh itu suma alasan...aku cuma malas je... ehe
yeah...
hehehehehhehehehehe
think i should b probably start rite away on that artwork.or maybe i can start tumoro.first thing when i wake up.promise.
so.. "u jump, i jump, jack"... hahahha
pelik kan dunia.heh tataw ape yang ade kat depan...tapi tu a..klu takut nak ke depan, sampai bila2 kat situ..takpe a..jalan je a...jalan terus! nanti jatuh ke, begolek ke, ade gaung ke ape ke, biar a dulu kan..bila dah jatuh, bangun.begolek, sambung guling2 je.ade gaung, pikir a nanti camne..buat mase nie, kite jalan terus a kan...yeah..heh
I'm his Brandy Alexander
Always get him into trouble
I hide that I'm flattered
Brandy Alexander
-song by Feist.
XD
my migraine pills..dah abis...but i think i wont buy any of those lagi ah..
ha.dah malas nak tdow ni, biar aku merepek pasal satu lagu nieh.there's this song.this haunted song..Angel by Sarah McLachlan.lagu nie, goes back years n years ago kan...i once loved this song so much, i had to listen it everytime i shower.the extra pathetic loser i was, i liked to listen to this song when i had the self-pity mode. the words just hits me...most part..not all.bace a lirik nye ngan sepenoh hati..
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
faham x, dunia, ttg kesunyian aku mase tu? rase tak? do u feel it? the aching feel of emptiness. the lack of sense of belonging. the anger n frustration n confusion. do u feel it? ofcourse u do..coz u ve been there rite.yeah... opening lagu ni pun aku dah rase..ish...tsk2...haunted sial. anyway. lepas sume negative association aku buat ngan lagu nie, aku dah penat ngan die.sbb at one point, lagu ni lekat gile mase one of my silly phases with sai, n kesedihan lagu ni bertambah2 mase tu..so i stopped listening to it. skit pun aku tak nak dgr.dgr je, sakit...skit je, sakit...
but today, zura played a live version that she did with josh groban.n the spell broke.i got on youtube n search for another live version of it.n yeah..kompom...tade perasaan dah..
some part of me actually, is a bit dissapointed. this song is not for smiley faces, i thot...but she sang it with all that lovely n happy face..damn it doesnt come out right..the song's so depressing. how can she mean what she sang n be as happy as that??? so does that mean she doesnt mean it when she sang it? or i just take it too seriously??..eheh but part of me is glad for seeing this live version. n now i can stop hating the song. im neutral now.ahahaha
learning about life is so much better now that ure around.
hm.