entah apa lagi lah.

tiada cukup ilham mau cakap-cakap pasal masa dan graviti. *alasan* jadi, di kala dipertikaikan dan mempertikaikan lagi, aku macam teringat satu scene dalam hidup aku.

masa itu aku dalam sebuah kenderaan. aku lupa kenderaan itu teksi atau kereta mak aku. tapi aku passenger masa itu. aku termenung keluar tingkap. aku ingat. aku banyak fikir pasal masalah aku. so called problems ka.

tiba-tiba aku dengar lagu ni. iya...lagu dan kata-kata dalam lagu ini buat aku tersenyum pada masa itu. I was smiling while trying to hold in some tears in at that time. aku pun lupa kenapa.

tapi sekarang yang aku dengar cuma pujukan supaya aku terima saja apa yang ada. sebab apa yang ada itu aku juga yang cari dan minta. and that no one will get the last laugh. 'The last laugh' is just like….hermm…wat is it like?—just a make-believe.
But I might be wrong.


say by john myr.

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations

Say what you need to say

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only ...

Say what you need to say

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say

So, I’ve made a total idiot of myself by saying things that I didn’t think I mean to mean it at times in the past, but I did get to deliver my thoughts and feelings—or so I thought. Sometimes, people take what other people say and interpret them wrongly. I realize that I did it at times. I saw it done by others at other times. and I found out people done it against me at some other, other times. But that’s okay. I still get to say what I thought I have to say and that’s better than holding it in.

But now—I am holding in almost everything that I thought I needed to say. Maybe that’s just part of growing up.. Aku Cuma harapkan understanding dari satu jiwa saja.

I miss the 'taste' and 'smell' of Welly.

This topic is so lame.

I still like the song.

Making lesson plans are addictive.