1st Syawal.1st year.Welly.with support group
Raya celebration at Aizat's.2nd year.Welly.
Tahun ni...hurmm...
Hari kemenangan yang mungkin bukan untuk aku.
Aku tidak layak.
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Today made me think with a little ease. Home has its own way to take away your blues. Especially with the kids around. But none the less, I was thinking hard. It is 1 Syawal. And I am not proud of where I turned out to be. Another Ramadhan has passed me, and I don’t think I made any improvement. In the contrary, I think I have become worse… What and how, let me keep it to myself. That is between me and God.
What have I done…*sigh*
Where am I standing… *sigh*
Sighing and asking things wouldn’t undo the things that I have done to deserve this humbling self-realization of where I have led my life to. I know. So I need a kick start.
I need to regain my self-respect. I need to regain my self-belief. But first, before I can do all that, I know, I need to get back to the basics. Looking back at my last year's entries...tsk… it’s like I have walked backwards.
Therefore, I think I need to make another public apology: I wanted to apologize for every wrongdoings that I have done to anyone and for every trouble that I have caused...
Selamat Hari Raya...