the cost of money

my God, life stinks these days. so tiring.

ive given up the two dances. mangunatip n indian dance.i feel so shitty..so selfish coz i told them that i want to be in the team though im working. but then i realized, its not gona happen. im so full of shit. im sorry ila, enaz n other dancers.

but then i still have arus. coz they cant find a replacement for that. but then i have to ask for a day off from work for the rehearsal. this is hard for me coz im still new n just started work. Georgia's (my supervisor) face flash inside my head..damn...this is going to be ugly..but o well....i have to.this is perhaps my final participation on dancing. ooOO0000 i dont know..i love dancing u know...eff it.TRUCK TRUCK TRUCK!!

dannn....
ina rindu sai... :((

this is two things i upload on dA today.they r the same thing actually.just that this is for a contest
klik pic to view:



*this is before it is colored btw*



while this is *just the head* i cropped for FRKGOD.check him out.klik on the pic.


for the dA site klik here.

hurmm...~ i dont know what i need..more time?silly me.

for the money, i lost my time, my freedom to commit to other things that i love to do like dancing, i lost my friends, i lost my ability to procrastinate my assignments...

DAMN THE COST OF MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!