inside my room

it has been annoyingly more comforting to stay stuck inside my room.
usually, i'll be cursing myself if i havent gone out from my house for a day.and now it has been how many days??? let me count...the last time i went out was, friday.yerp.for work n classes.omg...and today is monday.

blakh.

i think my work on making so called "art", has made me comfortable not going outside.i make myself occupied w/ continuously making one piece after another.none stop.coz there's idea, you know..ideas that flows while it flows.before idea block comes.ideas that i cant push aside..sometimes it came middle of the night, n if i waited till morning, i'll loose it. so i have to grab a paper n start scribbling/writing any ideas so i wont forget. when i woke up again, i'll continue with the idea...if i got tired i have the internet.

blakh.

i havent even watched any movie recently~!mengagumkan! before this, i'll get bored out of my mind if i havent watch any movie in a week.now? i think its like 2 weeks, no movie.ngow.

now, what's my point on this...my point is...now that i think about it..i really dont like this kind of living...but...im beginning to hate going outside too...why???....

tak pe a.tomorrow i'll go out...not for class **till wednesday**. sbb for class pun still tak kire going out pun sbnrnye.but yeah.tumoro.
or the day after.coz im beginning to think of excuses to tell the girls so that i dont have to go out tumoro...or maybe not...or yes...

blakh..

excuses.damn me n my excuses.

and this is another poem.posted it somewhere else tp nak gak post kat sini lg.

untitled

kalau ia sebuah lagu,
maka ia tiada liriknya
kalau ia sebuah rumah,
maka ia tiada penghuninya
kalau ia hamparan langit malam,
maka bintang tiada kelihatan
kalau ia alat musik,
maka tiada pemainnya

tapi ia sebuah hati
yang kosong sahaja
dan tiada teman untuk berkongsi
ia kosong sahaja
biar ada terma 'kita'
ia kosong sahaja

lumpuh
biar bertubuh
kerana semuanya
masih terasa kosong

tapi ia sebuah buku
yang tiada tulisannya.

blakh.aku mintak keje kat sjs, 2 keje...due2 tade reply...damn..tapi dalam mase yg same, aku rase relief.. my freedom of memalas2 will not be taken away from me, at least for awhile..

but then come money issue.
**curse3**