my weekennddd!! yeah!!

yeah!

aih?tumoro, sunday..

damn...weekends come n go..but i appreciate weekends more now...got so tired working on weekdays (padan muke)..but thats the only way i could have money to buy more stuffs to experiment... anyhow, i promised a lot to my brothers to buy some stuffs n i promised my self i'd buy some for my mom too n hopefully i could buy some for my sister if she comes home n promise to be good to mom......blakh.....

cough's getting worst.flu getting well.
sai & me getting better... :">

and i uploaded another deviation
this is not the full deviation, plz klik for the full piece.

reference: some pics in some fashion mag
please critic and comment...i appreciate it if you (viewers) could point weaknesses n strengths or anything wrong with drawing which can help me improve..
but please be nice, im self-taught in portrait drawing..
thank you

THE FREEDOM OF SPEECH
ive been thinking a lot more about this lately...ive been thinking about this a lot since long ago but more3 lately..aku byk cakap, ko byk ckp, dia byk ckp, suma org ckp2.



haih..im getting older..
and more chicken shit everyday...


i really think we shouldnt have too much freedom in our speech..
i still think we shouldnt have too much of anything n thats including freedom..in speech in act in anything...burung yg bleyh terbang pun, kalau terbang tggi sgt, bole mampus ok...i am myself a living proof of too much freedom..


but then..
ONE: we live in a community..we r related to each other, no matter how close or how we dont know each other, we still r related.the fact that we are human leads to the fact that we are imperfect. the fact that we are imperfect leads to the fact that we make mistakes.mistakes that other people 'can' judge, criticize, tegurkan or anything if they may coz nothing can stop them (same as us to others)...

TWO: n the fact that we r human too means that we have feelings of different 'levels of toughness, roughness, softness, emoness, terase-ness...sometimes, even a simple sigh can make some people feel awkward, sad, or anything...maybe these are the over-critical people (maybe i am too) n then we'll hv the i-cant-care-less people..

so we take these two and we get=
when we talk or before we talk (say anything, fire ke, puji ke, comment ke), we should think.
how obvious is that.
and yet, we got broken hearts everyday for the things we say.

consider the listener, consider the topic, consider the consequence...
never underestimate the power of your slightest action

i said too many things that hurt too many people..n maybe thats y, too many things that people say hurt me back ...

im pure imperfection. n this is a silly topic.
but its worth thinking about.

the more obvious our mistakes, the more excuses we give...


tapi aku still rasa aku kene cakap certain things mase dulu!! jd for those things, aku tanak say sorry or tarik balek..hahahahahhahahahaha

oh before i go, reminder: this isnt me talking to fix things out there, this is my inner dialog.im talking to myself to make ME feel better..bukan nak nasihat2 org ye..a reminder for myself.

but then..its good to say "im sorry for the things that i shouldnt have said".....