im starting to hate color.starting to hate drawing.wish i could give up.or dont be me anymore.but if im not me, i wouldnt want to stop drawing or stop being myself..if im not me, i would be so optimistic, i'll feel that all my failures are not failures but its a process of learning~
or if im not me, i wouldnt be drawing, at all~ i would be studying, concentrating in class, finishing my EDUC journal every week, and start with my ALIN task 1 already..

orrrr if im not me, i'll be somewhere in sandakan, in the streets talking to my punk friends, talking/taking trash, stealing some money to have some shitty "fun"...hmmm....thats so negative..n this is me, coz im thinking of being someone who's not me, who is actually half me, coz deep down inside, i wana be that someone; even the trash one...but if im that someone, i'll still wanabe someone else, coz thats me, but if thats not me, i shouldnt want to be someone else but...

wat?
owh..okok...truck off and dieeeeeeeeeeeeee

dA updated
summer

getting out of the shithole

feel unmotivated gile..
what in the world made me think i can do anything