I forgot to mention this on Wednesday:
I was happy on Wednesday because a dear old friend accompanied me to school. I felt chirpy and felt like skipping all the way down to the taxi stand if it weren’t for my baju kurung and my destination which was the school.
I seldom felt that free anymore. But because of this old friend, things seemed lighter.
It was the rain. It’s cold but it warmed me up inside. The smell of it eased my mind a bit. And it injected me with this enthusiasm that I long had forgotten. *grin* I’m overdoing this. I just wanted to tell how much I like the rain. But I sure do love it more in Sandakan…
Okay. Here’s the thing I wanted to share. Remember that time when I said I was a bit depressed for two weeks in the past month?
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Hmm..yeah. That sure is a bit confusing—because I always seemed depressed. Well. Anyway. I was highly lost and deeply buried down under my sad and confused world for two weeks last month. As usual, I went to Atik the-great-philosopher for some wise and realistic advice.
She said some things and I was already started to feel better. And then I decided to write a list of things that I wanted in life. But she said “NO, dear old silly friend… you must instead write a list of things you simply like. LIKE.” *note the exaggeration, Atik never sounded like a deep and echoed voiced ancient woman*
For a few minutes, my head was on delay. I was a bit blurred. So she took my pen and paper and started my list for me. :All the things that I like: and she wrote the first three things for me, which made me say AWWWwww in my head because I realized that Atik knows so much about me… :’)
And that list, took 2 weeks to be completed; to get to 50. I was planning for 100. But I think I’ll save the other 50 vacant lines for other new things that I know I will found and be fond of during my whole life span. And maybe, hopefully, 50 lines would not be enough because there will be infinite number of things that I like and I will like.
“Why?” I thought… why a list of I LIKEs? And as the list grew bigger, I knew that this list made me realize that I have so many things in my life that can make me happy and which can help me cheer myself up, instead of searching for excuses to drag myself down as usual.
It made me realize the things (and people) that probably I had taken for granted. I would not achieve this sense of realization with a list of the things that I wanted in life. Because those things will be the things that I don’t have but I wanted to own. That would make me more of an ungrateful bastard.
So, I have to thank Atik.
And rain is number 6 on the list.
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...and I am deeply grateful for the existence of this one name that was written so many times in this list. Thank you.
And to the Support Group as well!~ yeeaaahhh...!
So if you are like me (an ungrateful bastard who sometimes forgot of how obvious and commonsensical that there are so many reasons for us to be happy instead of sad) you are recommended to do the list too.