I don’t LIKE THURSDAYS!
I have no class on Thursdays.
No. That is not the cause for me to not like Thursdays—don’t get me wrong, I’m not that into this teaching profession.
The thing is—I don’t like Thursdays because I will be extra tempted to waste time on irrelevant things. And then when I realized I just wasted time, I’d freaked out. Dang.
Like now. I am freaking out. But at the same time, I know this is my only time to waste during weekdays, so waste time I WILL~! So, I’m taking it slowwwww….
I remember this one time during the workshops we (the TESOLians in Welly) had before we fly back to Malaysia, we had this conversation with one of the lecturers about the teaching profession.
When we said that the plan was: we will be leaving after we have done our 4-5 years of contract; she was so sure we will not. I remember the way her face lit up when she said “I’m very sure that you will change your mind about this profession... you wouldn't want to leave~” *or something like that*. She kept on talking about how it is great and we will sure love it—with such passion and SEMANGAT!!! *imitates the psyche that she shows—somewhat Disney-like*
Don’t get me wrong (again); I love her for that. Just the way I love every lecturer I had in Welly that shows so much passion for the profession and education as a whole.
But it is the fifth week of my practicum, and I still don’t see any sign of love between me and the education system.
And…actually to tell the truth, I was a bit disappointed about that. Because I was hoping—even if it wasn’t love at first sight, I do hope I will fall in love with it. I don't really know why.
Maybe when I get my feet on the ground. When I am not a trainee anymore. Maybe.
No, Atik. Our plan to open cool and successful café is still on.
Even if I fall in love with teaching.